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 I'm Looking For . im looking for nice cardigans. If you have any nice ones or you think you have any thing that I will like, please email to me ok? Email to eileen.kyl@gmail.com Thanks people. :)  Life is too short. But everyday, people grumbles about all sorts of things. Find your parents irritating & wish they will disappear from your life? When this happens, you will nv like it. You will regret for what you have said or even wished for. If your grandparents dote on you, visit them more often. Spend time with them. Because, you nv know when will be the last time you speak to them. Life is scary. but death is even scarier. I hate death. I hate to see people leaving me. I hate to see people leaving my love ones, my fam & my friends. I know this is part of life. I'm not god. I can't get hold of the controller. So, I can only play my part well. I'm being rather emotional now. because I came to know that my best friend's grandfather is holding on to his last breath in the hospital. I pray hard that he will wait until my friend's auntie comes back. I pray hard that he will have no regrets. I pray hard that he will be able finish saying what he wants to say. I will pray hard tonight. Please pray hard tgt. God will hear us & let him stay at least a little longer. God bless him. second monthsary~ (: Seedling in my heart is two-month old today. Two months time is not too fast nor too slow. Time with my lovely boy has been too little yet fast. Every hour I spent with you, seem like seconds to me. I just couldn't help, but to feel upset every time we need to part. Every time im upset, you will smile & tell me it's going to be alright. I love the way you smile at me & make me feel that nothing can go wrong. The only thing that makes me feel better, other than being with you, is telling people about you being in my life. & If I could reach up & hold a star for every time you made me smile, I would have the whole night sky in the palm of my hand. Like you know, im never afraid of anything. But everyone has a weakness. You just happen to be mine. & im afraid of losing you. Once, somebody told me this: If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they will always be yours. If they don't, they never will. dear, I just want you to know: Knowing that you love me. Even when you let me go, I will still return. Because I love you. (: Every single thing, we have a principle for it. Like Studies, we have Principle of Accounts. Like Characters, we have Principle of One Self. Like Love, we have Principle of Existence. Because different people have different views. Hence, definition for Principle of Existence has often been wrong by people. Different people think differently: Infantile love follows the principle: "I love because I am loved." Mature love follows the principle: "I am loved because I love." Immature love says: "I love you because I need you." Mature love says: "I need you because I love you." In Principle of ♥.KYLE, KYLE thought so: I am loved by dan because I love dan. I need dan because I love dan. (: In Law of ♥.KYLE, things have never been too complicated to understand. Just like it's never too complicated for me to love dan. & it will not be wrong. (: Everything just started like a fairy tale for us. But im never worried about falling in love with you. Because in fairy tales, they don't find each other until the last page. We have found each other on the last page of the fairy tale. However, this is never the end. We are now the authors of this ever-continuing fairy tale. I love you & that is the beginning of everything. (: Happy second monthsary! (: & we will be. (: I dedicate "Every Moment Of My Life" to you. Everytime I leave to head out on the road. I wanna take you with me to save me from the cold. No matter where I go wrong, You'll be there to turn it into right. I will love you every moment of my life. When I'm on an airplane, flying cross the sky. I know you're on a trainride, stations passing by. No matter what the signs say. However in my mind you are by my side, I will love you every moment of my life. Everyone misses something, And I know time changes everything. All the love that you have to give, You should give just as long as you're holding that someone. I'd travel cross the great lakes to get to where you are. And even if forever wouldn't be too far. So baby when you asked me, To be the leading lady by your side. I promised to love you every moment of my life Everyone misses something, And I know time changes everything. All the love that you have to give, You should give just as long as you're holding that someone. Everytime I leave to head out on the road. I wanna take you with me to save me from the cold. No matter where I go wrong, You'll be there to turn it into right. I will love you every moment of my life. When I'm on an airplane, flying cross the sky. I know you're on a trainride, stations passing by. No matter what the signs say. However in my mind you are by my side, I will love you every moment of my life. I will love you every moment of my life. Love you every moment of my life. Appointment at SGH Today, I went to National Eye Center. Why is it so? If you had seen me within the past 17days, you will realize that my right eye is very red. It caused me a terrible headache & eye pain. Till the 12th day, I went to see a doctor & the doctor defer me to SGH, National Eye Center to do an eye check up. They force entry my appointment in as they said mine is an urgent case. Hence, I only attended the lecture for today. Last friday, the doctor said if I see blur on my right eye, I have to go to the hospital immediately. However, I did not. I bluffed my way through. Had my appointment at 1.30pm. First, I had my eye check & all the necessary checks by them. Then, I went to see the doctor. The doctor said I'm super lucky. He said, "Not that I want to scare you or make it sound serious. But this is very serious. Just a bit more & you may lose your right eye." Corneal Ulcer. Heard before? Let me explain to you. A corneal ulcer, or ulcerative keratitis, or eyesore is an inflammatory or more seriously, infective condition of the cornea involving disruption of its epithelial layer with involvement of the corneal stroma. It is a common condition in humans particularly in the tropics and the agrarian societies. In developing countries, Children afflicted by Vitamin A deficiency are at high risk for corneal ulcer and may become blind in both eyes, which may persist lifelong. In short, the doctor told me that if my case was a little more serious & I did not seek medical help, I may have high risk of being blind. Because bacterias or virus, whatever they called it, has attacked my right eye. If they are stronger, they would have alrdy taken my eye for seeking medical help late. Because when they are stronger & attack my eye, my right eye will be dead. That means the right eye will be blind & it will be removed. This also mean that I have to wait for a cornea. As in, when people die, they donate their cornea & that's only when I can operate & use their cornea. This is one picture how corneal ulcer looks like:  This is scary. Yes! I was so scared because I delayed time to seek for medical help. I was so scared that I nearly lost my sleep the whole night. Had bad nightmares & stuffs like that. But, I'm grateful that God heard me. He heard my prayers. Corneal Ulcer is not one in a million who will get it. It is rather common that SGH has new cases every month. If you don't want to be blind or not being able to see your love ones, take care of your eyes. Seek for medical help when you are sick. Even a small cough or flu may kill. Lastly, I would like to end with one word, "Treasure". First week of school, many lessons are e-learning so that means no lessons for me! But my poor dan still got lessons as per normal. I can see that he is so tired yet trying to make an effort to acc me. dear, every single thing I did, was not to show off to anyone. But to let you know, I love you. I don't care how people see you as my bf. All I know is that: You have done alot for me. You have given me the best you can give me at any moment of time. So, don't ever say that you are not being a good bf to me ok? I don't need anything materialistic from you. I just need you to be by my side. To Love Me. I asked you: baby, if one day dont know how near or how far away, if im blind, will you be there for me? You replied me: no matter wad i'll still be there for u Even if u need my cornea to see..i'll also give u my corneas Baby i love u too much all i need is a healthy u to be by my side =) At that instance, I felt so much better & braver. I feel more at ease now. I haven't been feeling very good these days. It's because I'm afraid I inherited my dad's eye illness. Although it may not be near future that I will be blind, I know one day I will if I inherit it. I told God: God, please let me live healthy with no illness & problems. I know God will be fair to me. He has just given me such a wonderful "U". He will not be so stingy to take something from me. I'm going to the hospital for an eye check up. It will be a very normal eye check up. When I walk out of the hospital, I will wear a smile on my face. Doctor will tell me that I'm just having a normal sore eye. Ok, maybe a little bit more than normal sore eye. Because it takes longer time to recover. The pain in my eye & severe headache is caused by the sore eye which had not recovered after so long. I will be ok. Just normal. So, I should stop thinking about it now. Just go to sleep. Go to lecture tmr morning, then to hospital to know that I'm just fine. dear, you promised: you will be my walking stick when I'm old. be there for me whenever I need you. If I ever know how to express my love for you in words, I will. If you give me one chance to tell you how im feeling now, I would tell you I won't live my life without you. I would hold your hands & look into your eyes, to tell you I will never let you go. If my love for you can ever be expressed in words, I bet it's an endless lists of words. If someone else ever take you away from my life, my earth will be a tomb. The rose you planted in my heart, speaks of love silently, in a language known only to my heart. Like others said, Absence sharpens love, presence strengthens it. This is why my love for you only grows but never withers. You always tell me how lucky you are to have me. I didn't have a chance to tell you how lucky I am to have you. Give me the chance now. You always say: I deserve better & you don't deserve it. You are just so lucky that I love you. You are the one man who doesn't deserve me the most. But don't you know smth? To me, That man who deserves me the most is the man who thinks he doesn't. If love comes so easily just by luck, everyone else would be in love. & in this earth, there won't be any singles alrdy. Hence, for me to love you, is not depending on luck. It's because I just love the way you are & the way I will be when I love you. To my beloved bf, I love you for who you are. I can see the changes you made. No matter what, I just want you to be happy. Because I Love You. (: Sisters Forever! (: Sister. It feels so great to have a sister. Although at times we fight, we quarrel. But we always shake our hands after every quarrels. Sisters' peace. (: Someone who will be there for the rest of your life. Maybe you will be living in the North while your sister will be living in the East. Nothing changes. Everything remain unchange. This is the only thing that doesn't change. It always make me feel better when I know my sister is there. She understands me. She knows I don't speak much. She knows I don't like durian. She knows alot about me. Just like I know about her. Just like how much I want to know about her, understand her. We may be sisters for this life. But no guarantees that we will still be sisters for the next life. If I can ever choose again, I will still choose to be my sister's sister. A sudden thought & I feel I must write it out. It's for my sister. I know she is going through a lot. & I just wish her all the best for everything. Thanks for the words that day. Sweetheart, I Love You. (: Sweetheart, I know you love me just like I love you. I won't compare who loves who more. Because it's redundant. I know you have always want me to be a part of your life. You know what, baby? When I make plans now, I include you into my plan. Even when I plan when to work when not to, I try my best to put you at the first priority seat of my heart. I know you won't be free on Saturday so I look for job which allows me to work on sat only. At least when I'm working, you are out doing something too. I'm like the mother earth & you are like my sun. I go round you everyday, day after day. You will shine your love & care on me as I go round. If one day, my sun suddenly disappear, I know me as the mother earth will be gone soon. Because Earth can never be without Sun. Just like I can't be without you. dear, I'm sorry if I ever hurt you when I ask you not to leave me. It's not because I don't believe you. It's because I'm afraid I will lose you someday. Losing my love ones is one of my greatest fear. & I can't afford to lose you. Not that I don't believe in your promises. It's because i'm afraid of promises. I know you mean what you say. But I still fear about broken promises. I didn't want you to promise me too much. Because i'm afraid you forgot or didn't manage to do it. dear, you have already done your best. I know you did. You gave me all your best that you have. You gave me all the love & care I need. It's me who feels insecure. I believe: The more I love you, The more I fear losing you. Just like I have read it somewhere once: When I think of you, i'm afraid to miss you. When I miss you, i'm afraid to love you. When I love you, i'm afraid to kiss you. When I kiss you, i'm afraid to hug you. When I hug you, i'm afraid to let go of you. When I let go of you, i'm afraid to lose you. See why I'm so afraid of losing you? Just because I'm loving you. I know you will be here when I need you. I know you will be here when I miss you. I know you will be here even when nth happens. Just like I will stay by your side no matter what happens. I'm assuring you that you can love me forever. Just like how long your forever lasts. You can still do what you like. Playing games or whatever. Just rmb not to break my heart. My heart is fragile. I may be fierce when people irritates me. But I'm sure you know how terribly I will feel if I'm ever hurt. Baby I'll listen to whatever you say. I just want to let you know, I love you. World Peace! im sorry, baby. I still get angry & in the end I still scold so many bad things. :( But if i nv scold, I really can't fall aslp. :( im sorry! :( I promise I will learn to control a little bit more. im really ok when im not angry. But when I get mad, im nuts. :( im not expecting you to accept the way im. So, im going to change it. I have changed one of my habit. I know I did. dear, thanks for doing so much for me. for your herbal tea. for coming over like almost every night just to keep me acc for a few hrs & went home. I know it's very tiring to travel out & home. Even though it is just for awhile or few hours. I know it's very tiring & I still make you worry so much abt me. :( but im glad you came. im glad i still have you even after working so hard for a day at work. I love you, my dear. :) Thank you. :) I happen to come across someone's blog who was being tagged by "nameless". im too tired abt the restriction of the tagboard's word limit. So, im going to blog abt it & hopefully that M. Fucker sees it. Poor nameless, trying to ignore all my posts? Because you are just one who cant understand simple english. You M. F*cker, Left ur dick in ur hse freezer or you left it in ur mum's mouth? Go home fuck ur mother & get thrown down the building by ur father who fuck a prostitute with AIDS. Not enough of fucking huh? You can fuck a dog. What a pathetic nameless. Your parents gave you ur name & you decide not to use it. You are too shameless to use it. & try to attack people with words online? Can you be more shameless? Bloody fuck dog. Or you got run over by trunk that your boobs are deflated. So sad of you that you can't use ur pathetic small little ones to attract guys. Did I just say you left ur dick in ur mum's mouth & ur boobs deflated? Yes, I did. You are just one fucking monster with both of what a man & a woman have. It's best advised that you fuck urself & go to hell. Did you just say you have hair but not as much as her? Are you trying to tell us you are bald or you just try to stick some hair on. So that you can pretend to be a normal person. You are just another hairless bastard with no asshole. Here comes the melody for all your 18 generation: May you give birth to children with no assholes. May you get AIDS. May you be run over by a bulldozer. May you go to the hospital & be treated like a rubbish, being thrown away. May you lost Your love one forever. I have enough of may you. I shall change my way of saying. If I still don't scold you, I doubt I can sleep tonight. You mother fucker small dick pussy Fuck face. pcb. you dont hum write on ppl blog tagboard & act as if you are very smart. Smart Fuck -'- Say is not other ppl's business. You idiot or you got run over by car until ur brain is no longer there? Didn't you live thru ur life with us ass being touched? Ain't this what your life is? One pathetic brainless prostitute/ duck. I bet you are one bisexual who stands at changi all night. Don't you know one thing? My always saying: My friend problem is my problem. Which mother fucker bully my friend means bully me. Come on! Let alone family. Fuck you. Can't you see that they are her family members? You dare to say ppl parents you dare to own up. act one big shot over there. Trying to think that this is the problem between you & her. Come on la eh. Fucker, use ur brain to think. No brain use ass think. No ass then how? I know you will definitely ask me this qn. Just nice, I got a perfect solution for you! Go to 13th floor, jump down. Fuck you, female bitch dog. I CURSE YOU to go to the 18th lvl of hell. I CURSE YOU to nv re-incarnate. I CURSE YOU to be fuck by many bangalas. I CURSE YOUR mum & sisters get raped & striped off by bangalas. I CURSE YOUR dad & brothers get AIDS thru fucking prostitutes. I CURSE YOUR family get down on luck. YOUR FATHER lose his job. YOUR MOTHER lose her leg. YOUR SISTER lose her virginity. YOUR BROTHER lose his dick. & for you, Lose your head. May you die without a full body. All your body parts be eaten by sharks. Fuck face. -'- kao bei kao bu there with small girl. like that you also happy ar? im sure you bo lan bo ji. im more than happy to see how you will die. Come on la, fuck face! Got some brain & got some courage. Leave your name & details behind. im more than happy to let you die. I have not been excited over such things for a very long time. You make me fire with excitement upon seeing how terribly you will die. Ok, after scolding you for awhile, I think I feel so much better & I can go to bed now. Oh ya, btw, nameless. If you think you haven't had enough of my scoldings for you, Please go to my archives & browse thru the history. I got plenty of posts which are meant for dogs like you. Those things go to you as well. Rmb fuck face. im waiting for you to respond. Fuck face. Before I end, I got a message for nicklaus thong. *Rmb what I say. Got any prob find me. You find the wrong person & you get it. im the only right person for you to find regards to that matter. Not happy? im always here waiting. You make him lose one hair? I make sure you lose all yours. & one thing i think you would love to know. That is: Those people whom you have mentioned that hate you. They hate you or dislike you not because of what I wrote or said abt you. They feel that way way before I wrote them. I said my piece. If you have any prob, don't find him. Look for me. Baby u want me to go ma? my baby dan is still so sweet to me. (: im still loving him alot. (: Thanks my dear. Even if you can only be here for just 30secs, I still need you to be with me. I love you. (: |
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